Sunday, March 29, 2015

Dear Nolan... You're 3 months old!

My smiley, strong, happy little boy...

3 months old!  I can't believe it.  This month has been filled with lots of smiles - big, open mouth, squishy eyed smiles.  Some of my favorite smiles in the whole world.  You've started to really take in the world around you and like to be walked around so you can see everything.  You've also become more comfortable with your surroundings and your 'fussy time' at night is getting shorter.

You love being in the front pack - when facing toward us, you can't stay awake for very long, you usually always fall asleep.  If you are facing outward, which we do for short periods of time, you love to stare at everything around you.  Unfortunately, like your sister, you really dislike the car seat.  It causes mama lots of anxiety and getting into the car and going somewhere is always a carefully planned event.  You cry most of the time you are in it.  We are really hoping you start liking the iPad so maybe we can distract you for longer car rides!  We switched you into a big boy carseat, and it has seemed to help a tiny bit.

A couple weeks ago, you started discovering your hands and batting at objects.  Gramz got you a new bouncer seat with a bar with toys on it and you have really started eyeing the toys, grabbing at them, and swatting them.  You love staring at books and toys while laying on your back as well.

We took you to the doctor this month because you were having trouble with your coughing and breathing and you had to get a breathing treatment and an inhaler to take home.  It broke my heart, but you were such a good boy through it all.  Sometimes, you would stop to smile at us in the middle of your coughing spells.  You weighed 13 pounds 10 ounces at your appointment!  Big boy!

You are wearing 3-6 month, and 6 month sized clothes.  I can't believe how quickly you grew out of your 3 month sized stuff.  It made me so sad to go through your drawer already.  You are in size 2 diapers and I am guessing at least 24 inches long.

You are getting strong and starting to hold your head very well.  You like standing on your legs (with our help) and kicking your feet and swinging your arms around when you are on your back.  Before you got sick, you were doing 6-7 hour stretches at night, but since getting sick we are off our schedule and lately you've been getting up 2-3 times per night to eat.  You love sleeping on your belly and you love your sleep sheep.  You are still sleeping with us in our room, but taking longs naps in your crib.

You and your sister are starting to interact a little more, you love to look at her.  You are such a happy guy and it is so much fun to see you grow and change so much each month.  I feel so privileged to be your mommy, you make me so happy.  You are very snuggly and love being held.  You are almost starting to giggle and make funny sounds when you are trying to laugh.  We have a few nicknames for you - Toots (still), little man, lil wheezy (when you were sick), and mr. butts.

I think you are just adorable.  I look at you and can't believe you're my baby boy.  Although you and your sister look alike, I think you definitely have your own little look.  I hope you never doubt my love and admiration for you.  I am so proud of you and love you more than you could ever fathom.  As much as I hate to see the time pass, it is so much fun to see you everyday - you're growing and changing so much.

I love you, my sweet son.  Forever and ever!

Sunday, March 1, 2015

Dear Nolan... You're 2 months old

My handsome, almond-shaped, blue-eyed little boy . . .

You are TWO months old (well, sort of... there isn't a 29th day in February this year).  You have changed so much in your short time here with us.  My favorite part of this last month has been your adorable big smile.  When you make eye contact with me and flash that squishy smile, I can't help but feel completely smitten.  Your eyes crinkle up and you smile with your whole face.  Your first official 'non gas' smiles were on January 31st, and you flashed them to me and your gramz and pops all in the same day.  You are also starting to get vocal and will coo and talk to us.

Unfortunately, you picked up your sisters cough at about 6 weeks old.  It was so sad to see you struggle with coughing.  You and I slept in our comfy nursery chair in your room for a couple nights so I could keep you upright and near the humidifier.  Mostly, you sleep with us in our room.  Sometimes you will sleep in the bassinet, but you like to sleep next to us.  You are waking up about once or twice a night.  You don't usually cry, just wake up to eat and go back to sleep.  You are still quite gassy, and I can tell it's painful, so sometimes you wiggle around to get it out and that will keep you up a little longer.  

You are a very snuggly baby and you love to be held and touched.  We carry you around a lot in the front pack and you are usually pretty content.  You love to look around and are really starting to take everything in around you.  You like looking at ceiling fans, lights, people and toys.  Dada loves holding you while you sleep on his chest.   You love your bath time, especially when the water is really warm.  You immediately relax when we put you in.  

You are a very happy and smiley baby, but you have definitely had your fussy days.  Just like your big sister, you are not a fan of the car.  I have to be strategic about when I take you places or you will scream the whole time.  We have had a few days where you have been pretty fussy most of the day.  It breaks my heart when you cry, so I will do everything I can to make you comfy.  We have two nick names for you so far - "Toots" and "needy Nolan".  We also call you "shiver lips" sometimes because you shiver your lips a lot.  Your sister absolutely adores you and is constantly trying to hug, kiss, and snuggle you.  She gets so excited when she gets to hold you and I am so glad you two are already developing a little relationship.

This month, we celebrated your first Super Bowl (the Patriots won against the Seahawks), your first Valentine's Day - complete with a matching shirt with your sis, and your first trip to the Folsom Zoo.  Even though right now you aren't able to comprehend all of your firsts... we are so privileged and blessed to be experiencing life with you.

We just bumped you up to size 2 diapers today because those size 1s were tight and causing lots of extra outfit changes.  You are wearing size 3 month and 3-6 month clothes.  You are big and growing so fast.  We have your doctor's appointment on Monday.  I am guessing you weigh about 12 pounds.  You are breastfeeding well and eat every 2-3 hours during the day.  I am so happy we are able to breastfeed.  It's our special time and you are so sweet when you eat.  

You are so sweet, Nolan.  You have the most adorable little stares and I feel like we have a strong connection.  You have the most darling chubby cheeks.  I love the little notch in your left ear.  I am so thankful every single day to have you as my baby.  I love holding you and watching you.  I have a favorite spot on the side of your head that I love to kiss over and over.  Your daddy and I talk about how precious and cute you are all the time.  We feel ridiculously lucky to have you.  There are no words to express how much I love you.  Unconditionally & forever.  

Happy 2 months my sweet boy.  I still stare at you and can't believe you're ours and have been for 2 months.  The time is passing at an impossible pace and I just want to soak in every little detail of you.

Love you,

Wednesday, February 11, 2015

Dear Andie... You're 21 Months Old

My affectionate, loving, beautiful little girl,

It has been a big 3 months for you.  You became a big sister on December 29th, 2014.  I am so proud of you and how you're handling all of the new changes in our lives.  I hope I never forget the sound of your voice when you say (sometimes yell) "I love baby", "oh no, baby", "hello baby!"... it is absolutely adorable and you are always looking for Nolan and kissing his head, and trying to share your toys with him.  You can't quite say "Nolan", but you can say his nickname "toots" and it is so cute when you say it.

Besides gaining a new family member, you also celebrated your 2nd Thanksgiving and Christmas.  We had a great time doing our Christmas Tree hunt with the family in Apple Hill.  You and your cousins were so cute!  We celebrated Thanksgiving in Monterey with daddy's family and stayed at a house near the beach.  We took a walk with your uncles near the ocean and you loved getting out and running around.

We celebrated our Christmas morning on Christmas Eve because dada had to work.  We woke up early and went to Gramz and Pops house.  My goodness, it was filled with love, good food, and lots of presents.  The theme this year for you was Minnie Mouse, because you are crazy about her!  Gramz and Pops got you several new gifts that you were so thrilled about and are still playing with everyday, including your Minnie car, a couple new baby dolls, books, and your Mickey Mouse Clubhouse figurines.  Santa brought you a new miniature trampoline and you are getting very good at bouncing on it and saying "ashes, ashes we all fall down". We had a wonderful Christmas and you really enjoyed it.

I would say your biggest change during the last 3 months has been in your ability to communicate with us about what you need.  You are saying so many words and phrases and definitely understand us better than we know.  You have a great memory and I love reading some of your books with you because you point out so many things - including numbers - and I am always so proud of you.  Some of my favorite phrases you say... "Oh no, what happened?", "all done" (which you kind of sing when you say it), "more please", "thank you", and "all through the town" (one of your favorite songs is wheels on the bus).  I love how you add "mama" and "dada" to the end of your phrases now, too.  "Hello mama!"  It is so cute and every single day it seems like your words are getting more and more clear and you are learning more of them.

You love to watch Mickey Mouse Clubhouse and it is adorable how you dance and sing the songs.  It's amazing to me that you actually seem to understand what is happening in the episodes, sometimes I will hear an "oh no" if something bad is happening.  You also love the song "Let it Go" from the movie Frozen and sing it all the time.  You throw your arms out and spin around in circles, get dizzy and fall all over the place.  Sometimes in the morning or after your nap you wake up singing "Let it Go, let it gooo".  It is so precious.

You are a feisty and tough little girl.  You definitely are not a girlie-girl right now.  You can't stand having bows or clips in your hair, hats, sunglasses, socks, or necklaces on.  You still love being thrown into the air and spun around.  You love to play rough and wrestle with your cousins.  You absolutely adore your cousin Ryan ("why-an"), and you get so excited to see him, throwing your arms around him, asking him to pick you up, and loving on him.  You also love holding his hand and following him around.

Although you're not a girlie-girl... you absolutely love your baby dolls.  You read to them, hold them, rock them, kiss them, and feed them.  It's amazing watching you love them, it makes me feel like you have learned to love them a little bit like we love you.  When you get angry with dada or me, you will sometimes swat or hit us, then immediately follow it up with kisses.  You also will put yourself on time out if you are doing something you know you shouldn't and we ask you if you want to go on time out.

You definitely have started the journey into what some people refer to as the "terrible twos".  You are smart and know when you're upsetting us and sometimes will do it if you are trying to get attention or are mad.  When you lose your temper, you will throw things (for example, if you can't get your doll stroller moving the way you want, you will pick it up and throw it).  You also do something we call "protesting".  A couple weeks ago we were at the mall and you were furious that you couldn't have another turn on the carousel, so you laid down on the ground and stayed there.  We just watched you and tried to refrain from laughing because we knew we couldn't give in... no matter how cute you are!  Sometimes you make me a little crazy when you are acting your age, but I understand this is part of you growing and learning and am doing my best to maintain consistent when I say "no" and keep my patience (which is not always easy).  You also do not like to have your picture taken, I have to be quick and sly to get a good shot.

On the day after Christmas, we faced you forward in your car seat for the first time.  After more than 18 months of hating the car and crying, we finally have a happy girl in the car and it has made it a lot easier on us if we are driving somewhere.  You wear size 4 diapers, size 18-24 months and 2T clothes, and size 4 (almost 5) shoe.  You are growing so quickly and I would guess you are close to 25-27 pounds and about 33 inches tall.  You sleep pretty well, about 12 hours at night with a 7:30 bed time, and sometimes you will take a 3 hour nap during the day.  You are very good at putting yourself to sleep.  Your favorite possession is still your 'blankey' and you chew on them and snuggle them while you sleep.

During the last couple of months, we had you in tumble time, which you really have enjoyed.  Mainly, you just love running around with out boundaries and being able to climb on everything in site.  You have gotten really good on the trampoline and hanging from the bar.  It has been a great thing for you to express your energy and connect with other kids.  Next up is swim lessons, and we have already enrolled you in them and you start those in a couple weeks!

You are getting much better at eating in the last few weeks - you went through a picky phase and we worried you weren't getting enough - but your appetite seems to be coming back and I think you are growing.  Your favorite food is fruit, especially blueberries & all berries.  You ask for them often.  You like frozen yogurt, ice cream, and cookies.

I can't believe you are 21 months old.  I stare at you sometimes and am just in awe of you.  You are the sweetest, most affectionate and loving little girl I have ever known.  You really are such a love.  You give me random hugs through out the day, will grab my arm or hand during diaper changes and kiss it, hug my legs if I am standing up, and if anyone asks for hugs and kisses you will usually always give them.  You blow kisses and pat our backs when we are holding you.  I just can't get enough of your loves... they make me so happy.  You have the cutest laugh and you love life.  You're adventurous, fearless, and happy.  I feel so blessed and lucky to have you, my beautiful daughter.  I know we will always have a special relationship and I hope you know my love is for you is unconditional.  I am in disbelief that you're almost 2.  If I could go back and do it all over again, I would.  It is so much fun to watch you grow, you make us laugh every single day.

"Little girls are the nicest thing to happen to people.  They are born with a little bit of angel shine about them, and though it wears thin sometimes there is always enough left to lasso your heart..." - Alan Beck

I love you forever,

With Ryan getting our Christmas tree
 Checking out your new Minnie Mouse cars with Stella
This picture makes me smile for several reasons... first, you have such a genuine and happy smile.  It makes my heart burst!  Second, Gramz took this picture of you when she was getting you out of the house to the park.  She said you were so fearless that you climbed straight up to the top of the highest slide, so she had to follow you up and go down with you.  I wish I could have been there to take a picture of that!
 You started showing an interest in coloring in the last few weeks and it is so adorable!  Good thing we found these mess free markers.
My happy, sticker-loving little girl!

Sunday, February 8, 2015

Nolan's Birth Annoucements

One of my favorite things to get in the mail is birth announcements (& Christmas cards)... I love seeing pictures of squishy babies... and I was so excited to send out Nolan's.  Once we got our photos back from our photographer, I immediately started browsing all of the adorable announcements on Tiny Prints, and found several that I love.  I did finally pick one, which was not easy!  Here are a few of the ones I was picking between...

I ended up going with this last one because I loved the detail around the edges and the little airplane on it! :)

Thursday, January 29, 2015

Dear Nolan... You're ONE Month Old

My handsome, sweet, beautiful little man...

A month old already.  I can't believe I have had a SON for a month.  My goodness, you have brought so much love into our home, and I have absolutely loved getting to know you better during this last month.  You are so darn cute, your chubby cheeks and curious blue eyes make me want to melt and I am consistently having to remind myself that you are mine.  

I am loving having a newborn again.  One of my favorite things in the whole world is the way you smell - I wish I could bottle it up.  I keep going over and over the day you were born in my mind.  It was such a beautiful day, you came into the world quickly and holding your tiny warm body for the first time immediately filled my soul with an indescribable love.  

We brought you home on December 30th and Dada and Pops gave you your first bath on December 31st.  We learned quickly the big difference between a boy and girl baby - you peed before your bath and it shot up and got all over daddy's shirt.  We laughed so hard!  It was so sweet to watch the most important guys in my life bathe my little boy for the first time.  You also pooped in the tub, which you have done quite a few times since.  You love your bath time and like the water nice and warm... it always relaxes you.

You started out wearing newborn diapers and clothes, but by about 2.5 to 3 weeks old, you were too big and I had to switch you into the 3 month sized clothes and the size 1 diapers.  I can't believe what a big boy you are... you are healthy, and perfect!  At your first doctor's appointment on December 31st, you were 7 pounds, 10 ounces... but I think you've gained quite a bit since then.

You aren't the best sleeper at night.  I am still trying to figure out exactly how to make you comfortable.  You go mostly in 2-3 hour stretches, but sometimes you are up between feedings.  You don't cry a lot, but you want to be held and snuggled when you are up.  Some nights, you have a "witching" hour where you are fussy, but I don't mind getting to snuggle and love on you when you're fussy.  You usually always calm down when we hold you and walk around so you can see more of the world. Overall, you are a calm and mellow baby so far. 

You are quite alert and were from the moment you were born.  You have the most beautiful, round blue eyes.  I love it when we make eye contact.  I can't wait to see your first smile.  I love when you and I have moments for just us two so I can talk to you and really connect with you.  

You are so good at getting your diaper changed and don't seem to mind it.  You also seem to like the car, but you do notice when we stop moving.  As long as we are driving and in motion, you have been doing great in your car seat.  

We have tried to keep you home as much as possible to keep you healthy.  There is a measles outbreak right now, so I have a heightened sense of wanting to keep you healthy - and unfortunately, you won't be able to get vaccinated for that until you're much older.  But, I will feel much better after you get those shots when you're 2 months old.  

Your big sister, Andie, absolutely adores you.  She gives you kisses often and the first thing she does when she wakes up in the morning is starting saying "where's baby?", "hello, baby!", and "I love baby!".  You have no idea just how much you are loved already... not only by her, but so many people we are fortunate to have in our lives.  You have had quite a few visitors and we have loved sharing you with family and friends.

I love our time when I am breastfeeding you.  You have been a good eater and latched on right after you were born at the hospital, and I am so grateful for that.  You took your first bottle at 2 weeks for Gramz while I was getting my hair done.  She was in the car with you right outside... I can't stand to be away from you for too long yet.  You have had somewhat of a stuffy nose, which has made it a little more complicated for you to eat and sleep sometimes... but you are such a good boy when we have to suction you to help.

We call you "shiver lips" sometimes because your little lips will shiver when you are cold - or sometimes even when you are all wrapped up in blankets.  You are a bit 'rooter' when you're hungry - and we will say you're 'rootin', tootin' nolan!"  We also have experienced quite a few blow outs with you... you have some big toots and have needed several outfit changes because you blow out. :)

I am so grateful for my time with you.  You are very special to me and I am so happy and proud to be your mom.  I feel privileged that I get to watch your grow and develop and I am soaking up these moments with my tiny little boy because I know they will pass much too quickly.  Your daddy and I have had several conversations about how cute you are and what a sweet little guy you are.  We can't believe how lucky we are to have TWO beautiful and healthy kids... including a son!  I am excited to see how our relationship flourishes and grows in the coming months and years.  I look forward to having a very special bond with you.  I will always be here for you... to support you and love you unconditionally.  I love you so much, Nolan... I hope you never doubt or underestimate my love for you.  

Your mama

Meeting your cousins for the first time on January 2nd.  (Stella, Adam, Andie, and Ryan)
Your first bath with daddy and pops!
 I love you, Nolan!