Sunday, October 18, 2015

We're leaving our nest

I remember the first time we saw this house... we walked in and immediately fell in love with the feeling it gave us.  It was clean, bright, had beautiful views and seemed to be a perfect fit.  I remember picturing a line of tiny shoes in the laundry room, knowing which room would someday be a nursery, and imagined having family and friends fill the kitchen and living room.  We were so excited to move in.  I vividly remember seeing it empty on the day we got the keys and being amazed that we got to live here.  We only got this house because 2 other offers had fallen through and we were the back up.

A little more than 5 years later, and this home has been a blessing.  We brought two babies home from the hospital.  We've spent countless hours on the big shaggy rug in our living room with our kids - crawling, snuggling and playing.

One of my favorite things about this home is watching the rain fall.  I can see the drops in contrast to our neighbors house.  It is so quiet here.  The big windows have always given us a beautiful show of the dark clouds, lightening, and sunsets.  They've also provided us with beautiful natural light to take pictures of these babies... thousands and thousands of them!

On the walk from our room to theirs for the middle of the night feedings, I would peek out the windows at the lights.  It's always been a comfort for me.  I have felt safe here.  It's home to our little family.  So much life has happened in these big 4 walls.

About 4 months ago, TL and I found another house, a single story, that we really liked in a different area.  We put an offer on it, but didn't get it because we weren't competitive with a contingency of our house not being sold.  I hadn't even imagined moving... but something about this other house made me start thinking about something different.  It was a single story, smaller, and all of the rooms were near each other.  As fabulous as our house is, it's multi-level with big balconies with a long drop to the bottom.  Andie is now sleeping on a different level than us, and we don't have an accessible back yard.  Before babies, I never thought I would be nervous about a child falling over the railing, or needing a place to run outside with out worrying about cars.  Things change, life changes... and our needs are very different then they were 5 years ago.

So... we decided to list the house and see what happened.  And now, another young couple is purchasing it.  We've had so many second thoughts... how do you leave something you love so much?  It's been a roller coaster of decisions, but we've finally decided this is for the best.

Home is where my family is.  We are going to be renting for the foreseeable future and looking into the possibility of building a home.  It's crazy how life works out... how people come into our lives.  We bought this house from the builder who happened to be living here... we established a relationship with him because he has a reputable business and does a lot of things for people in our neighborhood.  And now, he may be building our next home as well.

I am not always a huge fan of big change.  I think this will be an interesting year for us.  Life is an adventure, and why not just say 'yes' and see what different things may be waiting around the corner.

We have found a potential lot we like... but lots of things will have to fall into place for us to build. It's so hard to imagine a home on the big pile of dirt and weeds.  Who knows where to road will take us.  Just as long as we are together, that's all that matters.  I want to start writing about our journey, as honestly as I can, to building our own home if things work out.

Now... who wants to come over and help me organize, pack, and box up our stuff?  I will provide the wine. ;)


10 comments:

Monica T. said...

What a wonderful new beginning! I have been following as you got married, had babies, and mothered those cuties! Follow your instincts!!

simone antoniazzi said...

How exciting...and yes, a little scary too, I can understand that!
Love watching your journey Xx

Caley-Jade Rosenberg said...

Change is never easy my friend, and neither is leaving behind sweet memories but it is fun and exciting too!
We absolutely loved every day of building our home and now we have every room and corner we have ever dreamed of - you can build closer rooms, bigger flat garden and no railings.
Praying for you and your next journey x

mclinds said...

Big changes can be scary, but as long as you're together with your family, that's all that matters. How exciting you may be building from scratch exactly how you want it. I'm sure the sacrifices will be hard, but in the long run, be worth it for you! Best of luck :)

Smiling is Good for Your Teeth said...

This is so exciting! I would love to help, even if it is just moral support!! Cheers to change and transition and making the most of it! Let me know when I should come over! ;-)

Natasha said...

yay for a new adventure!!!!! thrilled for you friend and all that's to come for your sweet family

Elena @ baby Ridley bump said...

So fun! I'm sure it is so hard to leave that first home where you had all those memories but now you get to make new ones! Congrats to you guys!

Leslee said...

Best of luck on your new adventure! I'm certain all of your dreams will come true - ♥

I am available to help if you need :-)

daniel zehnder said...

Tracy this is so very exciting!!!! Loved ,loved , loved the house you brought your Babies home to but onward and forward!!! Let us know what we can do to help out even if it is to watch the Littles !!! We would All Love that so much!! Hugs from Aunt Chelle

Lauren said...

So exciting! We moved between the girls, and it was definitely bittersweet. I still have so many memories from the home that we came home from our honeymoon to and the same home that we brought Elyse home from the hospital too...however, now that we're at our new home, I can't hardly imagine us being anywhere else! Good luck in the building process if it all works out for you!