Thursday, July 31, 2014

Thankful Thursday and thoughts on Baby #2


We are so darn excited for baby #2, and even though I am already almost 17 weeks pregnant, it still doesn't feel real.  (Even though we have seen him lots of times on ultrasounds!)  A lot of people have asked how close Andie and baby boy will be... they'll be about 20 months apart, so very close!  I realize our life is going to get quite chaotic with TWO children under two, in diapers, and closely needing our attention.  But regardless of this expected chaos, I will be very grateful for this huge blessing - to be a mom to TWO children, and family of 4.

With Andie, we tried for nearly 18 months before getting pregnant.  She was a big surprise when we finally did, and we were so thrilled.  TL and I talked a lot about when we wanted to start 'trying' for number two, and started keeping track of everything shortly after Andie turned 6 months old.  We figured, why not!?  Life is an adventure, and if it were to take us a little time and we needed to get fertility help, at least we wouldn't look back and wish we started sooner.  Well, that was not the case, obviously, because within about 5 months of paying attention, I got that positive pregnancy test.  I came out of the bathroom after secretly taking the test and just looked at TL, I didn't have to say a word and he started screaming with joy... then immediately telling Andie she was going to be a big sister.  It's such a special memory.

A few days after finding out about this baby, I also had a few feelings I wasn't expecting.  I was still happy, but I found myself feeling a little guilty.  I would stare at this beautiful baby girl of mine and think - oh my gosh, is baby number 2 going to interfere with my relationship with her?  Is it possible for me to even come close to loving another child this much?  And then when we found out it was a BOY, my mind raced with a few more fears - how will I do with a boy?  Is it going to be something entirely foreign and new for me?

I realize all of these thoughts are probably normal, and I would never want to come across as ungrateful, we are SO grateful for this huge blessing.  I think no matter the age difference between kids, that fear of the unknown can be present.  After talking to my mom and some others, I have heard it is very common for mom's to feel nervous about loving another child.

At my 12 week check up, the doctor did an ultrasound and I saw this fully formed little baby floating around, moving, and waving little hands in my belly.  And there is was... that spark I was needing to remind me I CAN love another tiny human being like I love the little one who is here already.  After about 14 weeks, the morning sickness and vomiting subsided... and as I have started feeling more like myself, I am getting more and more used to the idea of having a little guy running around here.

I'm certain our lives are about to change BIG time when this baby debuts in our lives this January.  It will be crazy, messy, loud, and I am sure a little sleepless. . . but I still don't know how I got so lucky to have this opportunity, and I will never take it for granted.  Thank goodness I married a great man who loves being a daddy and is so thrilled for this next baby and to grow our family.  He is so supportive and takes his role as dada very seriously (well, sort of, he is a huge kid at heart).  I could cry thinking about what a good dad he is!

I am so thankful for all of the support, love, congratulations, and excitement we have been given in these last few days as our family and friends have learned about this baby.  We truly feel overwhelmed with gratitude.  Thank you!

17 comments:

Krista said...

Congratulations! Such an exciting time!

Hilary said...

Ahhh! This didn't show up on my Bloglovin' feed - I just saw your announcement on FB. So excited for you!!! And a boy?! That's so awesome! Boys are great. :-))

Kim Richardson said...

So sweet, made me tear up! On to a new adventure, congrats!!

Jane {In The Pink & Green} said...

Congrats Tracy! That is SO awesome! Also, so fun that we are pregnant at the same time too! (I swear every blogger I follow is pregnant right now LOL) I am 22 weeks today, and am also wondering how life will be with a baby boy...it will be an adventure I'm sure! :) Congrats again to you and your family!

Jenn @ West Sac Honey said...

This is so exciting Tracy!! Congrats!

Elena Ridley said...

Such a sweet story! So amazing that you're having a little boy! How exciting!!

Elena Ridley said...

Such a sweet story! So amazing that you're having a little boy! How exciting!!

Ashley @ Words About Waverly said...

Aw, congrats!!!!!!!!!! So excited for you, you will rock it as a mom of two!

Lisa C said...

I must've missed the announcement, but congrats!

Caley-Jade Rosenberg said...

CONGRATULATIONS my Trac!! I am so happy for you and your sweet family - what exciting news! Little Andie is going to be the most precious big sister and before you know it, you will settle into life with two!! It's pretty crazy in the beginning and then it is the best thing ever! And a little man to complete your family too x

Linsey Jackson said...

That's so exciting, congrats! I've been a long time follower (since before Andie was even announced) and I am so happy for you. I have a little 2yo boy myself and there is nothing like a mama's boy. He is seriously my little buddy and best friend! I too recently found out I'm pregnant (6w) and I have been having the same guilty feelings! It breaks my heart to think about not having alone time with my son and that he will feel less important or abandoned... I would hate for that to happen! I'm hoping I'll get that same spark you got when you had your ultrasound when I have mine. I really can't wait to feel that connection!

simone antoniazzi said...

Ooooooh, so exciting!!!!! Many congratulations, that's wonderful news!!!! And a little boy too, lovely :) Xx

Natasha said...

this makes me giddy with excitement for you sweet friend!! i promise two under two is crazy, yes, but SO MUCH FUN as well and you'll be glad to have them so close together when things settle a bit...sending you big hugs from nashville!! OXOX

Lauren said...

Congrats again! So exciting for your precious family!

Crazy Shenanigans-JMO said...

Congrats!!! How exciting for you and your family!

Jess at Just Rainbows and Butterflies said...

Congrats! Wow, life is about to get so fun and exciting for you. And having a little boy is the best. I might be a little biased though. :)

simone antoniazzi said...

Something made me think of you today, funny how that happens! I realised that I hadn't read a blogpost from you for ages....I do hope that you are well. Take care Xx